Happy Mother's Day!

Better wish late than never! :)

Happy Mother's Day to all of you mommies out there! U are loved and appreciated! Mommy is the Queen of every one's heart no matter u are her husband, son and daughter! Her unconditional love for us is undeniable, can't be compare to any jewelries and diamonds! It's priceless.

"Mothers hold their children hands for a short while, but their hearts forever." 

I know someday me myself will be a momma and...When I'm already become a mom in future, definitely I'm going to say this:

" Even though I'm a mom- this day still feels a bit sad- because we don't have our mom anymore. Somehow no matter how much of a mama I am already, I'll still always be my mom's baby."

Sweet letter for Mom I found in Tumblr 

My FIVE weaknesses in LOVE

Traumatized! Maybe yes or Maybe no! But I think my answer is YES! One experience does bring huge impacts on me. Sometime I'm scared and become timid when it come to love. And now..

• I have no confident how to start or having a conversation to a man I'm crushed on. I'm afraid he would know my attention.

• I'm not too easy to fall for sweet and cheesy words from man again. It just to play a girl's heart. That's what I called playboy.  

• I don't show to much care and love towards man I crushed. I'm afraid he going to avoid seeing, hanging or talk to me then. That's scared the most.

• I will never ever ever confess my feeling. It such a shame. I will never do the same things again. A big no no for it. That is the first and last from me. Now I just leave it to God. If there's a God's will, he will know what I feel for him.

• If I know there is another girl who have the same attention as I am for him, I rather quit and giving her a chance. Not because I'm a weak competitor. Taking caution for not having the same result as I get previously. Since the incident, I never wanting to act like it. How painful it is to know my competitor would having the man I love in the end.

2010 once again!!

While I'm doing my assignment, my mind off to somewhere else, to the bad memory-land ever for me; 2010!! I HATE 2010!! My miserable year. It bring a lot of suffer, emotional and regrettable feeling. In a year alone, I have too many unexpected trails and challenges. My studies, friendship, ex-admire man (now, no more) and college.

• My study getting from good to bad last year. Its started when I get into my second year. I don't really know what happen to me. It's like I'm letting myself to be a useless person. Everything seems no care, just numb. I have no concern especially my Midterm. I just focus on my assignment and Final Exam. And the result now; I have 4 repeat papers!! So frustrating and regretting for me. That's why I can't have my graduation this year. So sad!! How I wish I could turn back time and fix everything right. 

•  My friendship also having a difficulties. I hope for the best in it because friends never leave their friend alone. 

• About this one; ex-admire man! old story to be told but he also part of my life last year so I have to put him in the list. I still remember I confess my feeling to him before Valentine but he rejected me. From stranger to friend and now we are totally an alien. Why do I called both of us alien?? Cause every time we meet in Unimas, we didn't say "hello" or smile. Both of us not able to see faces again. Ever! What an alien right??haha! *Hope he and his girl have a great relationship till last breath. I pray for them*

• Oh, you know how it feel to be thrown out like a rubbish. Yes! My college kick me out cause I have not enough cops. Now I'm live outside Unimas. Anyway, I love staying here in Desa Ilmu. I'm feeling free. No college activities and no rules.

Huge earthquake hit JAPAN

The worst tragedy happens  for the second time, shocking a silent world once again after 2004; TSUNAMI! Oh my!! On March 11, 2011 at 2.56 p.m. , Japan was struck by a magnitude 8.9 earthquake off its northeastern coast Friday. Unleashing a 13-foot (4-meter) tsunami that washed away cars and tore away buildings along the coast near the epicenter. There were reports of injuries in Tokyo. Fragmentary early reports of the toll indicate that hundreds of people have been killed. Japanese police officials told the Associated Press that 200 to 300 bodies were found in Sendai, a port city in the northeastern part of the country and the closest main city to the epicenter. 

It's scary how natural disasters are beyond our control. My heart is breaking with every image I see. So sad! Strongest prayers go out so that no more harm be done there and elsewhere. My prayers and love are with all of those in Japan. Let us lift a prayer for Japan as the night covers their nation in darkness. Let our prayers be their light. Lord, may we forever stay protected within your hands of protection regardless of size the tsunami may be. Amen!

Ash Wednesday!

Just want to share about the meaning of Ash Wednesday. Ash Wednesday marks the beginning of the Season of Lent. It is a season of penance, reflection and fasting which prepares us for Christ's Resurrection on Easter Sunday, through which we attain redemption.

During Ash Wednesday's mass, our foreheads are marked with ashes. It is to humble our hearts and remind us that life passes away on Earth. In the bible it had said "Remember, Man is dust and unto dust you shall return." I remember my mom always tell us that we need to know where we came from every year on the night of Ash Wednesday. That's why the ceremony is important to attend by Christians (Catholics, Anglican and Methodist). Why do we receive ashes?? It is because ashes are a symbol of penance made sacramental by the blessing of the Church. They help us develop a spirit of humility and sacrifice. 

The ashes are made from the blessed palms used in the Palm Sunday celebration of the previous year. The ashes are blessed with Holy Water and are scented by exposure to incense. While the ashes symbolize penance and contrition, they are also a reminder that God is gracious and merciful to those who call on Him with repentant hearts. His Divine mercy is of utmost importance during the season of Lent.

It's 3.20 a.m. now means yesterday is Ash Wednesday. I'm a bit of regret because of not attending the evening mass. My obvious obstacle is not having a transportation. I know it's nonsense cause I can get a help from friends. But sadly, I'm not  taking any action. I just having myself a prayer in my room without get marked with ashes. I feel so bad and really really sad. Anyway, It had happened and I have to put my regretting aside. So, today is the first day of Lent. I need to start my fasting today onwards until Easter come. The main point of fasting; must win against temptation!! During fasting, usually I take bread and water for breakfast. No food allow for me in the afternoon, only water by my side. While at night, I have my heavy meal but I reduce the quantity taken. Fasting doesn't means that you do not eat or drink at all. Besides food, you  can reduce the activities or things that are your favorite. Make something different during Lent season. Something that you seldom done before in your everyday life.  For example, like me, I always wanting to drop by on my facebook, twitter and blog everyday. Now, I need to reduce it.  Make it twice in a week. Hope I can make it and be resistance. Most important in fasting is our sincerity on doing it. Never ever force ourselves!!

This quote, ♥ it!

"The best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and best friends." 

• It’s when you have more playful moments than serious moments. 

• It’s when you can joke around, let each other have piggy backs, have unexpected hugs and random kisses. 

• It’s when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile. 

• It’s when you’ll rather stay in to watch movies, eat junk food and cuddle, than go out all the time. 

• It’s when you’ll stay up all night just to settle your arguments and problems. 

• It’s when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are.  

Source: eschiavon

Your happiness is my pleasure

What a surprised when I knew about it. Never be told. Never be plan. And most of all, never ever be expected by me. *Clap*Clap*

J’s members do not have any idea on what I’m bubbling about since last week. The King and Queen, Oh my! I always keep on ruin everything.  All I need to do is zipping my mouth till she speaks it out this JUNE. But, I can’t wait no more. What a bliss news she got for us this year = ENGAGEMENT PLANING!! My eldest sister, EileenLJ are now planning to have her engagement this year. If there's a God's will, probably she going to be Douglas fiancee on December 2011. Yup! Douglas is my future brother-in-law to be. And you know what; he is a son of my Secondary School Teacher. What a coincident!! 

This news brings me a double triple joy! The reasons are; 

1)        She finally goes back to Sarawak permanently.

2)        She will marry a guy that has the same religion, Christian.

3)        I become the bridesmaid. *Yes, I’m eager and excited to be her maid of honor. I already tell her to book it just for me*

I’m so happy for her that I couldn’t resist myself. Now, I can't sleep. Haha! Too much of excitement. Hopefully both of you can make it! Amen!

I pray for you! I pray for your happiness sista!

I want a Long Curly Orang-ee Hair!

I want to style my hair just like her but not too much of accessories!

Focus. Focus. Focus.

*Sigh*Sigh*

And I'm saying, "Can't take my eyes on my lappy!! 24-7 with it is my paradise. I'm dying without it. OH MY BLUE LAPPY!!" 

OMGOSH! OMGEE! I need someone who can slap me on the face. Telling me that I have my Midterm Exam this FRIDAY. Remember, it's 30%!!

BernadetteCJ! stop facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Tumblr-ing, SKYP-ing, YM-ing and OF COURSE Blog-ing. Give yourselves a break off!! Only for 2 days. Come on!! Start revising your notes especially Madam Jamliah's part. Its a bit tough!!

.Focus. Focus. Focus.

3 words; I'm touch!

Hello March

 Welcoming March means?? I'm nervous!

2 months left before this semester end. That's mean I need 1 more month to rush up all my FYP work. Time flies so fast and there is too little time given. I heard that I need to submit my FYP draft report on April 4, 2011. 

So, Wake Up!!! Dreaming no more..

♥ ♥ ♥

Forehead kiss

I always want to have a forehead kiss. No doubt a kiss on the forehead is a very tender gesture because it isn't somewhere you're normally kissed and your forehead is usually ignored.

From the first date to wedding day, kisses are very important. They can tell you a lot about a person. Kisses show passion, energy or a lack thereof. In the stages of a relationship, the French kiss is the favorite. It is a great tool for measuring chemistry and it can be as passionate as you make it. For me, I think forehead kiss is the most romantic kisses of all. A kiss on the forehead symbolizes love in its purest form, untainted with the pitfalls of romance. It conveys warmth and compassion better than the latter actually. Even though some say it is equivalent to the kiss of death, friend’s care or mommy’s kiss, but still I prefer it. I’m not saying that I don’t like French kiss. I love French kiss but I’m more to forehead kiss. It just that I feel secure, tenderly love, personal and protected when someone I love gives me that kisses. It will always give me a reassuring feeling. I don’t want to have a kiss that last for that moment. The moment when we had a great kiss together then the next day, we forget everything. Apparently kissing on the forehead means “I want to be with you forever”. So, each time I barely stare at my love one, I can feel and remember those meaning words.

My rule, do not kiss me on the forehead unless you are in love with me!

Morning! Morning!

" Good morning! Good morning! Good morning to you.

Good morning! Good morning! to you and you and you. "

(heart singing children song, I miss my mommy!!)

My mom teach Music despite of English. She likes collecting the children songs. Too many of her collection sometimes  make me feel like my home is a kinder garden or nursery. Just the matter of no children, that's make the differences. I join my mom twice in conducting action song since I study at Labuan Matriculation on 2008. Based on my experience, it's interesting and I'm having a great moment with it. The tough task was to handle the chaos, not every students would insist directly to my command. You know how students behave especially year 1, 2 and 3. But when they treat me like their "mom", "aunt" or "big sister", honestly my heart melt. My sensitivity make us easy to get along. I love to see some of  them act friendly, talkative and actively during rehearsal or practice session.  They look so cute for both boys and girls. Now, my mom didn't participate in action song no more as she already transferred to another school, St. Anthony this year. Last 2 years was my last action song with them.

Oh my! it's 7 a.m., I watch the sunrise right through my window and I can hear bird's chirping beautifully outside my house. What a wonderful morning!! Today my course mate are having their trip to Batang Ai-Sri Aman-Bintulu-Gua Niah-Miri. Its kind of weird to me as I'm not joining them this semester. I miss my friends, its been awhile I didn't meet them. I know this trip is the last trip for my batch. I really sorry for not taking that core subject. I plan to have it during my extend. So now I have to not thinking of it even though I really wish I can go.  Even for a day, it's meaningful and memorable to me.

P/S to Munyit Gals, Julan and Jovinia: Take a good care of yourselves and enjoy. May God bless your journey this morning. If you are on your way to Gua Niah, I know all of you will pass by my "rumah panjai sebelah dadi ku". Nama rumah panjai nya; Rumah Muyang!! :)

Just an attraction, not love!

Taxonomy of Vascular Plants Practical (18.2.2011)

Zingiberales order is what I learn on  that day. During the practical session, we had to distinguish the inflorescence of each family  by drawing and labeling the specimen and also determine the floral formula. 

The Zingiberales order is made up of 8 families, mostly tropical plants that are commonly grown as ornamental. They also have culinary and medicinal uses. Specific characteristics which distinguish the Zingiberales from the other plants include;

• Rhizomatous herb

• Young leaf roll and present or midrib

• Present of ligule

• Involucral bract

• Stamen and filament formed staminoid structure

• Zigomorphic flower

Out of 8, we only given 3 species of different family; Cannaceae, Heliconiaceae and Musaceae. 

Cannaceae (Canna indica)

Cannas are distinguished by the presence of mucilage cells and a petal like style fused to a single fertile stamen.  The flower is a bisexual which mean male and female part are in the same flower, often lasting only a day. Have 3 distinct, imbricate sepals and 3 connate, imbricate petals. Have 1 functional stamen. The filament connate with staminodes; adnate to corolla while the anther is unilocular. 3 or 4 petaloid staminodes; 1 larger than the others and recurved, all basally connate and adnate to corolla. 3 carpel are connate and the ovary is inferior with axile placentation. Ovules numerous in each locule. There are nectaries in septa of ovary. The fruit is warty capsule and usually splitting irregularly by disintegration of the fruit wall.

Heliconiaceae (Heliconia psittacorum)

 

Heliconias are attractive tropical plants with banana-like leaves and beautiful. Long lasting inflorescences composed of showy bracts which contain the true flowers. It may be distinguished from other members of the Zingiberales by their inverted flowers, a sterile staminode and fruits which are drupes. The flowers are bisexual. Its inflorescence do have branch, persistent, colored bracts in the axils of which are fascicles of flowers with petaloid tepals and large herbs with 2-ranked leaves. The fruit has a single hard seed per locule.

Musaceae (Musa acuminata)

Musaceae is a family of banana.  The flowers are zygomorphic and functionally uni sexual or bisexual, the proximal ones being female and the distal ones male. There are 2 tepals; compound tepal and 1 free tepal. The androecium usually consists of 5 fertile stamens and a staminode that is opposite the free tepal. The gynoecium consists of a single compound pistil of 3 carpels, a single style and an inferior ovary with 3 locules, each containing numerous axile ovules. 

Can you see the differences between the male and female?? I didn't zoom in my lens for female. Equally in the same length when I take a photo of them. Female part especially the ovary is bigger than the male. This is because this part eventually become a banana fruit. Here is a picture of female ovary that have been cut it into 2;

My report:

Dry and sober evening

My eyes sick of seeing and staring the notes I have printed yesterday. It messes my bed. Luckily its me who done it, so I'm the one to be blame.  Yeah! Yeah! My fault as I prefer to have my study there.  If others do that on my bed, I eventually will burst out. What I really want is!! Just put my notes back where it belong. My head is full of Environmental Impact Assessment (EIA), I can't take it anymore. No spaces left, only explosion may occur. But I haven't finish all the chapters, how and where do I want to put the rest?? Best solution: extremely needed an oxygen for my ICU. Breath out! Breath in! Phew, the notes was completely full in detailed for every chapter and I need to memorize while understand what I had read. Now, I'm taking a half hour break to release my mind, out of EIA world. Wishing me a good luck for my tomorrow EIA Midterm. Hope I can do as good as I done my Chemotaxonomy last week. *finger cross*

The Sound of Music

Remember the 7 children of the Trapp family?

Yes, it had shown on TV. You may think you’re sick of it or not liking it at all but I do love it. Why you don’t like them; nun-in-training Julie Andrews hauling around those Von Trapp’s children and oddly the sexy voice of Christopher Plummer when singing “Edelweiss”. Is that doesn’t melt you? Oh my!! When I look at this picture again, I miss the children especially the youngest one. She was adorable to me.

The Sound of Music is a 1965 American Musical Film which directed by Robert Wise and starring, Julie Andrews and Christopher Plummer. It is based on the Broadway Musical the Sound of Music, with songs written by Richard Rodgers and Oscar Hammerstein II. What I love about this movie is its ability to bring audiences into another world with such ease. The film’s characters and story are very good with the combination of memorable musical moments of all time. Also, the outstanding music blew me away. Its tuneful songs and collectively produce one of the best soundtracks in musical history. Many of the songs serve the story well. Not forgetting Julie Andrews, she plays the biggest part in making the film itself. She is simply remarkable that she can do no wrong. She creates character that are easy to love and impossible to hate.

Here are the soundtracks:

The Sound of Music

Dixit Dominus (Psalm 110), Morning Hymn and Alleluia

Maria

I have confidence

My favourite things

Salzburg Montage

The Lonely Goatherd

Do Re Mi

Edelweiss

So long, farewell

Climb every mountain

Something good

Processional

“The Sound of Music” is a film which the story is just as enchanting today as it was been before.

On 2010, Oprah’s show make a reunion of “The Sound of Music” cast after 40 years and below are a picture of them;

Here comes more the photo scene of the film;

 

Miss my childhood when I came across this!

One of my favorite during weekend entertainment. Love to hear their french accent. So cute! Seeing the 12 children in "Madeline" remembering me to "The Sound of Music" movie.

Officially registered

Guess what? I've my driving license on February 15, 2011(Wednesday). Its been awhile I'm waiting for this moment after I had pass my JPJ test before Chinese New Year. When the license was handed to me, my heart says ; Am I, BernadetteCJ already had a driving license?? I can't believe this!! Is this for real?? OMG! Just want to pinch my hand, poke my legs or slapping my cheeks to convince me that this is a reality. As I grab it and put it in my pinky purse, I gasp. Car? Done! Now my mind set for this semester is only to get good grades. Oh yeah! I'm truly in heaven. I can go anywhere I want at anytime. All I need to do is rented a car. 

And this is what I did last Wednesday;

Without any plan I call up my friend Sharon, asking her out to Kuching's Airport to have a dinner there. Cause that's the only place I think I can go through. "The Spring"??hurmm..LET ME THINK 1st, huu~ I try my best to go there. I wish it! Back to my storyline, Thank God she accept it. Moreover, I'm glad she trust me tho I'm still a beginner. Here goes our journey, we rented a car for 3 hours and the starter was perfect. It was a splendid plan with lots of funny things come around which are (I recall back what had happened that night);

1. My first time go to the Petronas station by myself with Sharon. Actually I'm nervous when it comes to this part as I never done it before. Seriously my mom or dad never asked me to help them  with this. Luckily Sharon had her experience. She done it for me that day. Thanks friend!

2. Having fourth or fifth time I got my car conk. Mostly happens at the traffic light area. Damn! how I hate it. I prefer the roundabout rather than the traffic light.

3. As we arrived at the Airport and you know what?? I just park my car  far away from the ticket box. Oh man!! even my hand can't reach to push the button and I have to walk there. 

4. Half past 8.15 p.m., we went back to Unimas. During our way back, I forgot to switch on my front car's light. I feel so stupid when I think of it on car. How simple that things which I could ever forget. Haiya..hope I won't do this again in future.

5. The funniest thing on earth I done was when I enter the Unimas's security. I don't really know what makes the car goes like a hookey-heekey horse!! The car start to act  weird when I used gear 3 to climb up the bump. I wonder, is it wrong for bumper?? After 3 minutes of hookey-heekey jump, then it conk again for the sixth time. waaaa..both of us get so ashamed that we covered ourselves with laughed.

That was a memorable things which I never forget for my entire life. So many things happen in 3 hours. Its kind of crazy and foolish tragedy but I LOVE IT!

Have fun cause;